God, give me the strength...

My younger cousin got married about 3 months ago and she is now pregnant. This came as a total surprise to our entire family. I really want to be happy for her, but I just can't. I am so upset and feel like she is stealing my thunder. It is supposed to me my time now. She just got married and her time with people oogling over her and now I am supposed to have mine, but I feel like I won't now. That sounds totally selfish of me, but I am only getting married one and I kinda want this time to be about me and Kurt; not my 23 year old pregnant cousin. I don't even know if she is going to be in my wedding anymore and I actually dread talking to her about it. I am going to give her the option to decide whether or not she still wants to do because I don't want to kick her out. She is going to miss out on the fun, though. I know she won't come to my bachelorette party and she is not going to have fun in Vegas with a three week old baby. I just think she could have been a little more careful and a lot less careless with this situation she has out herself and others around her in. I really want to stop being so upset about this, too.