Lesson Learned

I definitely learned a lesson this time!

There is no way that I can date two guys at one time. It is too stressful and too hurtful to each party involved.

I recently had to break it off with one of the guys I was dating; go figure it was the one who really liked me. He is one of those guys that would run into a burning building to save me knowing that he was not going to make it out. He is going to make a great husband and father for someone one day, but not for me. There was soemthing missing and I didn't want to drag him along until it showed up or until I forced it, it would be false. I have never felt as bad as I did the day I told him we should stop dating. I almost started crying and I wasn't even the one who was being broken up with!

The guy who I am still seeing was hurt, also. He said he felt like I was being "shady" by not telling him things that were going on with the other guy. True, I let out details in my plan, but it was none of his business what I did or who it was with. I told him that I was dating someone else, and when he asked, I was truthful about who I was with. I really like him and I think I really screwed it up. We decided to keep seeing each other and take it from there.

Moral of the story: Don't date two people at once; it's a losing battle.

2 for 1

I am doing something right now that I said I would never do: dating two guys at one time. I always knew of girls who dated more than one person at a time and I never knew how they did it. I always told myself that I would never do that because someone would wind up getting hurt and I just didn't think I had it in me to do it. I got into this situation somewhat by accident. I didn't mean to put myself in this situation.
One relationship branched from friendship and turned into him and me hanging out quite a bit each week, which includes us going to dinner and even taking our dogs to the park together. The other came from us meeting through mutual friends.
This is so stressful and I still don't understand how some people can do it. I am so confused by my feelings and the guys' feelings. I am scared because I don't want to get hurt, but I don't want to hurt anyone in the process, although I am fully aware that this is impossible. My brain is going crazy with trying to decide which one I want to be with. One day a I really like one and then the next I really like the other. Both of them have such great qualities, but they are both so different. I wish there was some wayto mold them into one and that would be the perfect man for me.
I know that I need to make a decision some time soon because if I don't I am going to end up with neither.