the right one

I asked for a second chance and got it. I think I picked the right one this time. I am just surprised that I was given this chance. I really broke this guy's heart.

So far so good, though. We are having a great time and everything is really relaxed. It feel so comfortbale, but sometimes I think it feels too comfortable. Is it supposed to be like this already? Here I go again, over-analyzing everything. I always do this when I am in a relationship. I can't just let things go the way they are supposed to so I wind up screwing everything up.

I almost did that this weekend. I gave a different guy my phone number right in front of my new guy. Don't ask me why, I guess it just makes me feel good to know that there are still other guys out there who want me and find me attractive. That makes me question whether or not I am truly ready to settle down. I am beginning to see that this whole going clubbing every weekend thing isn't working for me anymore. I never have as much fun as I used to no matter how much I drink or who I am with. I would much rather go to a nice restaraunt and have a noce dinner and go home and relax. That has to count for something, right?