Picked the worng one...AGAIN

Looks like I picked the worng guy again. Why do I always do this? Maybe my friends are right, I like to be treated like crap, which is why I pick all the crappy guys.

I thought for sure I had the right one. He was everything I have been looking for. Good looking, great job, nice salary, adventurous, likes good food and wine, and he wore glasses (the icing on the cake). He is older and I figured more mature; the two usually go hand in hand. Turns out, that is not necessarily true. I have not heard from him in five days after he went out with someone else on Valentine's Day! If you don't like me, fine, but don't ignore me! Grow up. I am sick of dating boys, I want to date a man.

I can only hope that the other guy will still give me a chance. But, do I want that second chance? What does it mean if I can't stop thinking about him, but I am still unsure of whether or not I want a serious relationship with him? He is so great to me and I can see myself marrying hin and having a family and really being happy, but I can't see myself sleeping with him. That is a big part of a relationship for me. If it's not good in the bedroom, it can't be good anywhere else. I know that he is good for me, and I know that my family would love him. Why does it have to be this hard?