This is so hard

It was incredibly hard for me to be in San Marcos and Austin this weekend knowing that I was unable to see my ex-fiance. He was so close yet so far away (cheesy cliche, I know). He did call me one night and we talked and I cried. I absolutely understand why he can't see me, but what I don't understand is why I can't talk to him on the phone or anything. He told me that he does not want any type of contact because he has to sort things out. To me, that seems slightly unfair. How can I prove to him how much I have changed and how much I still love him if I can't contact him? I am thinking that if I do what he tells me to, he won't want me back. This other girl that he is dating has the upper hand, too because she is there with him and I am here, in another city. I can only hope that her bitch tendencies come back out or she gets back with her fiance. Why does love have to be so hard? I know if it wasn't, everyone would be in love and be happy. Also because it wouldn't be wortj it then if it was too easy. Bla, blah, blah.... Not anything that I want to hear right now. I want to hear that he still loves me and that he wants me back.